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 Why don't I ever think. Why am I such a moron. I keep fucking up and fucking up and it doesn't stop. It never stops.

I'm overly emotional because it's shark week and I'm fucking up like crazy and hurting the people around me and I just don't know what to do. I don't know what to do.

How can I be such an idiot. How can I be so stupid. I fucked up. I fucked up. I'm such a fool and no one will ever care about me gods how could I be such a moron? My own mother hates me. My father doesn't know what to do with me. My roommate probably wants to kill me half the time because I keep making things worse for her. I'm never doing anything right and I know, I know these thoughts are lies because I'm overly emotional and right now very hormonally imbalanced but fuck if I don't feel like the biggest tool on the planet.

Someone shoot me. Just please. I want this misery to end.

I was having such a good day and I just. I fucked up. I fucked up so bad. I fucked up so, so bad.

How the hell can I make this up? How can I fix it? God I am a moron. I'm such a moron.

I need to fix it I need to fix it how do I fix it I don't know how to fix it.

I can't ask. She'll just get pissed at me.

What do I do?